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The Purpose of Life |
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In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said: People ask me, What is the purpose of life? And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.
One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body-- but not the end of me.
I may live 60 to 100 years on earth
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I died and rose |
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This happened to me
A long story short.
I have never (up until now) had a relationship with my father. He was an alcoholic. I've wanted to die since I was a little boy. I'm 36 now. I cried myself to sleep as a child.
I have anger issues though I never hurt anyone, but I would imagine killing people who I didn't like.
I was a walking time bomb and suicidal thoughts entered my mind often.
10 years ago my sister prayed I would find God.
During this period I cursed God, called Him names I even spat on the floor. All I wanted was happiness, yet I had none.*remember this
A few months ago I got unfairly dismissed but while I was working there I got some cd's and a bible from one of the other employees. I told my father I could'nt pay rent because of this and he said "I don't care it's not my problem."
I decided that this was the end. I hated everything, I was unhappy, lonely, single and nothing brought happiness.
I prayed a few times but that's all. As the days rolled on I started to think of what method of suicide would suite me best. A guillotine, a knife to the chest, drowning, starving, slitting my wrists, a bullet in the head, car fumes, throwing myself off a bridge. Well I think every possible way to die I googled.
One evening I dropped to my knees, burst into tears and I prayed for forgiveness,for happiness,for strength,for joy, for God's grace and for Christ to come into my heart, into my life into my very existence. Boy did I cry.
I let it all out.
I stood up and decided to live, to battle it out and to try my best. I had little money which was running out, no food. I ate rice every third day or so. None of my family knew this.
I watched the cd's (all of them) and went to church on my own.
During service I gave my last 50 bucks. I gave it from my heart and didn't expect it back. I just somehow knew God would help me.
After service I got in my car and BOOOOOOOOMMMMMM.
God started His work.
My father calls, and in a soft never heard before tone he said "Douglas I want to say I'm sorry for what I said."
I also apologized for not been successful and not been a wonderful son ( another huge story but it's in the past) I asked my father to be a dad I never had, a dad I could say hello to every now and then. That I could pick up the phone and we could chat without it ending in an argument.
My father accepted. We continued, he said he would pay my debts, rent is free and that he would phone me every morning. I bit my tongue to hold my tears but that ladies and gentlemen just never happened. Those tears rolled down like a slot machine winner's coins. I lost 4 liters of water I'm sure.
Now I get home - this is one hour later. A friend put an add for some equipment I needed to sell for money- nothing for months.
My phone rings, A chap said to me I got 1k and I need your mixer.
My 50 bucks just earned me 1K !!!! Thank you GOD. I now can buy food and fuel.
2hrs later, I'm 1k richer, rent free, have a forgiving DAD who also asked for my forgiveness and I'm feeling it people. I'm happy for the first time in ages and ages. More tears. Of joy of coarse.
Next day, dad calls. "Morning Doug, how you..." etc etc. conversation ends, no screaming, no swearing, no anger. WOW.
Phone rings again, I must go quote for an alarm system. ( I was self employed for 6 years doing security)
I give the quote, its accepted. 8k 3 days later. GOD I LOVE YOU.
now all my problems are sinking, and I'm not doing much about them, I'm doing a little but not much. These problems are vanishing one by one. Looks like my sisters prayer has been answered too, 10 years later, was God's chosen time, when I called Him into my house and life. He stood outside for 10 years people waiting for me to invite Him in and then changed my life in 4 days or so. 4 days. Can you believe it. I'm crying right now to tell you the truth, my keyboard is blurry with all the tears.
If my family didn't keep their faith and prayers ( so important) I would be dead. Fact. Why didn't I kill myself? I just couldn't do it.
Now I'm helping my family with marital problems, stress away, LOL how bizarre. A gift from God? perhaps. I feel good, I'm happy. I pray about everything, every problem and I pray for others and every day just gets better and better. I volunteer for the church. All my loneliness is gone, I pray every time I'm sad. I'm eating, putting on weight, looking colourful (we spell like this in South Africa) and healthy.
*All I wanted was happiness,
yet I had none* that's because I never had Christ as number one in my life, duh. How could I be so stupid, so blind. I have suffered for 36 years when it needed only to be 20. But better now than never.
The very day I go to church, BANG my whole life is resolved.
Im getting baptized, reborn, renewed and I'm doing it, I'm living it, I'm feeling it and it's all for our GOD, our heavenly Father who saved a wretch like me.
Amen YEEEEHAAAAAA
D.J. Muller
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Did this story speak to you? Is God a part of your life?
If God's not a part of your life, or you're not sure He is, you can make sure right now.
We believe that God sent his son Jesus Christ to come to earth to live as a man.
We believe that everyone has sinned and no one is perfect.
We believe Jesus willingly went to the cross to die for all of us to forgive our sins.
We believe that the way to heaven is not through being a good person or through doing good deeds, but a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
You can have that today by praying this simple prayer:
God, I've messed up and have sinned against you. Please forgive me. I need you in my life. I believe that Jesus died on the cross to take the punishment of my sins and that you forgive me of all of my sins because of what Jesus did. Lord, I ask now that you fill me with your spirit and help me to live a life for you. Amen.
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